June 27th 2018 – 9.49pm
I am sat in the bedroom of what has been my university home for the past two years. In three days I move out for good.
I’m in a major state of transition in my life right now, and while that certainly means moving on to new and exciting things, it also means leaving a lot of things behind and letting a lot of things go.
I used to be someone very afraid of letting go, of possessions, memories, ideas, and even relationships.
But this last year has been a whirlwind and I really feel as though I’m on the precipice of a whole new chapter in my life and with welcoming new things into my life comes letting some old things go.
The first and most obvious thing I am leaving behind is my home. My little room in Southampton has seen me through 2/3 years of my university degree, and all of the memories that come with that. It’s incredibly strange to think that in a few days time I will walk out the door and never return.
Some would argue that I moved away from home 3 years ago, when I first moved to Southampton for university, but that doesn’t feel entirely true. I still went home for months at a time over the summer, a month around Christmas, a few weeks around Easter, and any other short visits I could fit in between. So it never really felt like I had properly moved away. I had my ‘uni home’ and ‘home home’. Soon though, I’ll be moving into a place with my boyfriend in Brighton. A place which for the first time will be completely my responsibility to fund and take care of, and there will be no summer holidays or Easter breaks to go back to Wales for. Brighton is about to become my ‘home home’ and it almost feels like having to let go of two homes at once.
I would have started education at the age of 3, and in a few weeks I turn 22. Thats around 19 years of education. So for the first time I am stepping out into the world without the structure of some sort of school/college/university to support me. No more graded assignments, no more lectures, lessons, or lecturers, just me and my own discipline to build myself an adult life. While this is incredibly liberating and exciting and certainly feels like what I’ve spend my whole life until now preparing for, it’s also incredibly scary.
With moving to a new place comes moving ALL OF MY STUFF to a new place, and I put that in caps because I HAVE A LOT OF STUFF. Or had. I have been trying my hardest and am still working towards a huge declutter of things. One of the biggest reasons for this is the amount of travelling I’m doing right now, I’ve basically had to fit a few months worth of things I need into a suitcase, backpack, and laptop case. But that wasn’t my only reason, I’ve been feeling more and more recently like the amount of things I own is making my unhappy. So many things that I never use and clothes I never wear making it harder to organise and find the things that I actually do use and like. I’ve been doing a lot of research into minimalism and recently purchased The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying: A simple, effective way to banish clutter forever by Marie Kondo. I’m hoping to develop more of a ‘less is more’ mindset so I can own less, hopefully spend less, have more room, and be surrounded by things I love that I’m able to keep organised. I’ve already let go of a lot of stuff but I still feel like I have a ways to go before I’m satisfied.
Another thing I’ve let go of is my hair! It now sits just above my collar bones and though I loved the look of my long hair, the maintenance just wasn’t worth it. I don’t have any pictures of it yet but after I’ve used up all of the photos I’ve already taken with my long hair you can be sure to see some banging pics!
So there you have it! Letting go isn’t always easy, but is often important for true development and change. Though I’m sad to have left and be leaving a lot of things in my life behind I am excited to move on to new things. And a majority of these things aren’t forever, I’ll go back to Wales often to visit my family, I plan on continuing to educate myself on a variety of topics via books, blogs, and other online content for as long as I am able, and I can always let my hair grow back if I feel like it!
Are you having to let go of anything at the moment? Let me know in the comments and we can bond over adjusting to new chapters in our lives!
(Pictures are from our trip to The Peak District last week because it didn’t occur to me until too late the night before this post was due to go live that it probably would have been nice for me to have done some pictures in/around my uni house)
Thanks for reading.